And inside my heart mind body soul spirit there is the tug of war between stories. In stark contrast to freedom, I see my life time prisons, the impossible burden I carry. I see it coming, so I step back. I shut my mouth. I just eat it. I feel exploited and used. And the bitterness grows. No one else cares, why should I. It grows until it blows. And I become the Dr. Jekyll I hate. When my mood changes, my movie changes and I don’t care–not by choice, I sell out to slavery.
And I wrestle against the many thousands of ideas images and urges that fight against me. Then comes the gift of God’s Intelligent Design, the crazy gift of Jesus Christ that invites my being into relationship with Him and I discover that gratitude reboots my thinking machine. Then for a moment I am given freedom to choose, suddenly aware of the story of freedom for all human kind. Thank you is the only logical response.
Gratitude reboots the machine. Simple, elegant, genius, intelligently designed, intended to impress me so that I would freely choose the better way, the path that leads me to heaven, cluttered with opposition refining my choices. Here is the privilege of intimacy with God. My free choice is to emphasize the simple solution, the intelligent design, the gift of freedom to choose. Gratitude reboots the machine. Freedom to choose the strength and love of God which changes my life forever.