“But it hurts so much to remember. The unfairness of it all. It wasn’t my fault. Why me?” Pouring out our collective memories, we are wounded creatures. The hard work, success, expectations, bullies betrayals molestations beatings unfairness ignorance neglect resentments rejections carelessness accidents wrong choices bad luck illnesses handicaps favoritisms power and pride. “I’ll show you the rage”, intimidation futility despair, tentacles of bitterness leaving deeply rooted scars, forming emotional anatomy that governs personality.
We become slaves, compulsively wounding others, often unaware. We are delicate human tissues, raised up in human environments where emotional reflexes go on wounding each other, inspite of us doing our very best.
Never give up, never surrender.
Early wounds leave permanent scars in the Emotional Anatomy. Frequently the pain of early life events separates us from conscious awareness because the pain is too much to bare. Unaware of these crippled influences, emotional reflexes force our behaviors. Pain teaches. Life knows how to teach us to pay attention to the obvious and more often subtle scars through repetitious failures. Intelligently designed, personal significance to the story of freedom motivates our willingness, and we choose to join in.
“In intelligent design, pain can become a teacher directing our attention to the awareness and location of wounded mood movies and ultimately free choice. Not until the pain becomes so great are we willing or motivated to think and choose differently. Intelligent design is persistent and persevering in persuading us to survive. It is our stubbornness that resists.”
“The way I fall apart is etched into my emotional anatomy. I have even become aware of horrific memories against which I recoil in rage, even refusing my rhythms of gratitude. I’ll never be grateful for that! The rage I feel is justified. I have spent my whole life preparing myself professionally and I run into these assholes again, only now, they are in charge.”
We are not lost. We are freedom fighters.
Yes, my confidence is growing and guiding me through gratitude.
Perhaps I will introduce you to flying lessons,
the story of freedom
and the magnificent woman.
Motivated by the story of freedom, you can count me in.